Wednesday, June 09, 2004
I'm enjoying my new office, with all the room and the view. It sure is quiet with Paul gone though. I hope he's having fun playing on the beach. I'm not sure when he gets back. I hope they have a safe trip.
It's about time for me to be thinking about when I will take my vacation. I think we will wait till the fall and go to the beach. I like going in the fall because the beaches aren't as crowded and the rates go down. I might take a short vacation during the summer also.
Doug has started working for himself full time. It's kind of good in a way. I was afraid when he first quit. Everything new is scary. Almost everyone resists change and fears the unknown. But I'm trying to look on the bright side. Every gray cloud has a silver lining and all those other overused cliches. He can take the kids in in the mornings. He can get housework done before he leaves work. He can take weekends off. We can start back to church. And we may come out better on our income taxes. I'm not going to list the drawbacks. I don't want to depress myself.
We took Brandi to a park over the weekend. It was new to us. We didn't stay long because it was so hot, muggy and humid we didn't stay very long. There was a pool there but you had to pay extra to get in. We have a pool at our aparment that we can swim in for free.
My favorite park to go to is Cheaha. I haven't been there in a while. I think we should plan a trip when Paul gets back. I've always loved going there to grill steaks, play in the water, hike and let the kids play on the playground. There is always Oak Mountain also. It's not as good as Cheaha, but it's closer.
Do you worry about what others think of you?
The truth is, if we know just how little attention others paid to us, we'd all worry a lot less about what others thought. The problem is, there are always those little negative jabs people hurl our way that make us more self-concious. They stand out and make us think that everyone is thinking that same thing. Usually the person who says harsh negative things toward us is really jealous, or has some reason for being awful toward you. It's a hard thing to overcome.
I think when most people meet me, they notice that I am very quiet. I've always been a quiet person. I believe people notice this, because they will either comment on it or complain about it. Some people are charmed by it I suppose, and others are irritated by it. It bothers me when people think you are dumb or a pushover because you don't talk a lot or don't talk loudly. Since when is being a loud person any sign of intelligence?
One final note, I'd like to say that no matter how worried I have ever been about what people think of me, I've never tried to be anything other than what I am. I figure when someone meets you they only have two choices. They can either like you or not like you. Which ever one they choose, I'd rather it be for what I really am.
The last thing I had a good cry over was losing a friend. I was broken hearted and cried a lot. I know I will never know another person like him, ever. If I think about it too much, even now, I will cry. I'm not sure if crying does any good. I'm not even sure I understand the whole crying reaction. I know I hate to cry but sometimes the urge just comes over me and I can't help it. That seems to have become less now that I am older.
Somethings I am not really good at:
I am not good with numbers. I am not good at speaking in front of large crowds. I am not good at confrontation. I am not a salesperson. I couldn't sell dollar bills for 50 cents. Susan is good at numbers. The pastors here are good at speaking in front of large crowds. My husband likes confrontation. I think his whole family does.
Somethings I am good at:
I am good at having patience. I am good at figuring out what is wrong with computers. I am good at desktop publishing. Some say I am good at writing. I am good at grilling steaks and hotwings.
I can not control what others do, think or feel. I can control what I do and think. I am not sure if I can control how I feel. I can't control the weather or the price of gas. I can control how much gas I use or what I do with each day.
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It's about time for me to be thinking about when I will take my vacation. I think we will wait till the fall and go to the beach. I like going in the fall because the beaches aren't as crowded and the rates go down. I might take a short vacation during the summer also.
Doug has started working for himself full time. It's kind of good in a way. I was afraid when he first quit. Everything new is scary. Almost everyone resists change and fears the unknown. But I'm trying to look on the bright side. Every gray cloud has a silver lining and all those other overused cliches. He can take the kids in in the mornings. He can get housework done before he leaves work. He can take weekends off. We can start back to church. And we may come out better on our income taxes. I'm not going to list the drawbacks. I don't want to depress myself.
We took Brandi to a park over the weekend. It was new to us. We didn't stay long because it was so hot, muggy and humid we didn't stay very long. There was a pool there but you had to pay extra to get in. We have a pool at our aparment that we can swim in for free.
My favorite park to go to is Cheaha. I haven't been there in a while. I think we should plan a trip when Paul gets back. I've always loved going there to grill steaks, play in the water, hike and let the kids play on the playground. There is always Oak Mountain also. It's not as good as Cheaha, but it's closer.
Do you worry about what others think of you?
The truth is, if we know just how little attention others paid to us, we'd all worry a lot less about what others thought. The problem is, there are always those little negative jabs people hurl our way that make us more self-concious. They stand out and make us think that everyone is thinking that same thing. Usually the person who says harsh negative things toward us is really jealous, or has some reason for being awful toward you. It's a hard thing to overcome.
I think when most people meet me, they notice that I am very quiet. I've always been a quiet person. I believe people notice this, because they will either comment on it or complain about it. Some people are charmed by it I suppose, and others are irritated by it. It bothers me when people think you are dumb or a pushover because you don't talk a lot or don't talk loudly. Since when is being a loud person any sign of intelligence?
One final note, I'd like to say that no matter how worried I have ever been about what people think of me, I've never tried to be anything other than what I am. I figure when someone meets you they only have two choices. They can either like you or not like you. Which ever one they choose, I'd rather it be for what I really am.
The last thing I had a good cry over was losing a friend. I was broken hearted and cried a lot. I know I will never know another person like him, ever. If I think about it too much, even now, I will cry. I'm not sure if crying does any good. I'm not even sure I understand the whole crying reaction. I know I hate to cry but sometimes the urge just comes over me and I can't help it. That seems to have become less now that I am older.
Somethings I am not really good at:
I am not good with numbers. I am not good at speaking in front of large crowds. I am not good at confrontation. I am not a salesperson. I couldn't sell dollar bills for 50 cents. Susan is good at numbers. The pastors here are good at speaking in front of large crowds. My husband likes confrontation. I think his whole family does.
Somethings I am good at:
I am good at having patience. I am good at figuring out what is wrong with computers. I am good at desktop publishing. Some say I am good at writing. I am good at grilling steaks and hotwings.
I can not control what others do, think or feel. I can control what I do and think. I am not sure if I can control how I feel. I can't control the weather or the price of gas. I can control how much gas I use or what I do with each day.
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